A New Beginning!

I am so looking forward to my birthday! Maybe it marks a new beginning? I can't wait for year 2010 to arrive too! A new year brings hope to me :)

This year had been a most difficult year. So many unhappy things had happened at work, family, marriage, etc. Many times I broke down in the shower or wake up crying in the nights. Sometimes the pressures are so overwhelming I feel I am buried under.

I can't wait for year 2009 to be over for a fresh new year to start with. But of course, I know the way I enter year 2010 is determined by the way I end year 2009. So I am gonna stay positive no matter what.

I have become more mature. My faith in God had been tested and stretched. I have learn to invest more in friendship and not to take my spouse for granted. Crisis had bond my family even closer, and I have learn to be a pillar of strength and support for them. Crisis had made me a better person.

Yet I look forward to year 2010 because I know I serve a great God! I believe in His promises. He has given me a hope and a great future. He is the beacon of light in the midst of darkness.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you," says the LORD, "thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."

In all these, most importantly, I pray I will have a heart like King David's - to know God.

Jeremiah 24:6-7
For I will set My eyes on them for good, and I will bring them back to this land; I will build them and not pull them down, and I will plant them and not pluck them up. Then I will give them a heart to know Me, that I am the LORD; and they shall be My people, and I will be their God, for they shall return to Me with their whole heart.

Singapore is Ridiculously Expensive!

My brother has been staying in the hospital for about 36 days now. To date, his hospital bill is $9,793.43! And in case you are thinking he is staying in A Ward... no... he's staying in C Ward. Even the medical social worker was stunned when I told her the bill amount. She even asked me how come it is so expensive when he's already staying in C Ward? The bill is still adding on as my brother won't be discharged so soon.

Another bomb dropped on us yesterday. My brother will have to stay in Ang Mo Kio Community Hospital for rehabilitation. The nurses & doctor could not tell us exactly how long he needs to stay there. They can only say he will need to stay there for quite a period of time, & the medical social worker told me that the average monthly bill is $3,800+!

2 big bombs! What is going to happen to all those poor folks? Folks who are so poor they can't even afford to buy insurance or have no medisave?? My brother's insurance does not cover community hospital (even though I had persuaded him since long time ago to purchase such insurance...), hence it would really be a financial strain on my family.

Singapore is Ridiculously Expensive!

According to your faith, it will be done

When James & me visited my brother 2 Thursday night ago, although he was feeling weak & tired, he was still able to sit up and talk. The next morning when I visited him, he had lost the use of his limbs & hands due to the brain damage caused by the virus attacking his brain! He wasn't even able to talk anymore!

On the 4th day that his condition turned worst, the doctor told him & me that he may not make it past that week. My brother fell into depression, & it wasn't better for my family. To see someone so close suddenly became paralysed was already heartbreaking. To know that he may not live was much worst. As his condition deteriorate so suddenly, it was harder for us to accept emotionally.

On the 3rd day that my brother fell critically ill, God spoke clearly to me, "According to your faith, it will be done." I asked Him, "Will my brother be healed?" He repeated, "According to your faith, it will be done."

Despite of my brother's paralyzed condition that I'd been seeing everyday & despite of what the doctor had said, I knew I had to believe that he will be healed. Of course I had fears, great fears, but I also know my brother's life lies in my faith. For according to my faith, it will be done. I chose to believe that God is His Healer.

My brother is now able to talk. Although he is still bedridden, but he is already regaining strength in his left leg & both arms. He is now even able to eat! The doctor said a miracle had happen! Praise God! I believe he will be able to get out of bed & walk very soon! My faith kept him alive!

To all my friends, have faith (despite of your fears)! For according to your faith, it will be done. & have big faith! Small faith = small miracle; big faith = big miracle! Why opt for small miracles when you know you can have big ones?

Psalm 63:7

My last holiday trip with my brother to date. I just realised I took a lot of pictures of him, but I didn't took together with him. Why?

He is closer to me than my father was to me. I know the person he loves the most in this world is me.

He would cook my favourite dishes every sunday when I go back to my mom's place. This is his way of loving me. It is the meal I looked forward to the most every week.

He don't smile a lot, but he always smiles to me.

"For You have been my help,
Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice."